Saturday, December 3, 2011

03.12.11

Convocation

When a student belongs to an institution,she makes friends there, friends she knows will last forever, she falls in love, suffers a heart break, falls madly in love yet again. She loves her friends just as much as blood relations and learns a few lessons that none of the books teach. Through the years of being at the institution the student also studies and learns a few lessons that will help to graduate and seek a better life. A 'Convocation' not only confers up on the student the Degree but also defines the meaning of a few very important years of life. Life will never be the same as those years in college and every year after college only leads to realizing just how precious college was.

Today, was that day in my life. 'The Convocation'. A day so eagerly awaited. I had no idea what I was walking into when I walked in through the gates of the Alma mater. Dressed pretty after a year of no college, I thought the day would only bring relief. Major amount of relief. Being done with college and everything to do with it. Ah! I had waited for this moment for a year and here it was.

7.45 in the morning, with relief and peace in mind, I walked though the gates. Beautiful weather and a very large modern campus. Every bit of the red brick infrastructure greeted me with a familiar warmth. The unbearable teachers were actually a treat for the eyes. There was a smile and a 'congrats' from everyone. What was it that I had come here to hate? As the day passed, we were ushered to the ceremony. The President/Founder of the Institute conferred upon us the title of our bachelors. Then as custom, he continued to a closing ceremony speech. As I took my seat, to listen to the Founder's final words to the graduating batch,a realization struck. Moments later, his voice was a faint drone. I drifted to the last few memorable years. The years of my tete`-a-tete´ with college.

The degree now bestowed up on me, wasn't just a glazed piece of paper. Within its A-4 sized boundaries lay memories that will define my coming years. The times that taught me I should stand up for myself and all decisions I make are to be followed and cannot be influenced easy. The memories from fond times spent with 5 best friends on a balcony,whiling time as if that is all we had. The innumerable pranks best friend S and I played on our batch mates. Senseless laughter sessions in the middle of class hour. From being late to class to being thrown out from class. S and I shared it all. We were bench partners and today,I know,there aren't many who know me as well as her. We share similar tattoos, almost similar opinions on everything that matters. We have a comment for every passerby and we know exactly where to draw the line. S and I have never fought *touchwood*. I love her like a sister.

Among the 5 best friends, there are AB and N. AB, the shy little Disney princess. She's a darling,this one. The amalgamation of innocence and intrigue is very endearing. She's also a smart one, with ambitions and the 'go-get-it' attitude. Over the last year, AB and I have shared a stronger bond. We now connect better than we did back in college. Over a heart break, she let her walls come down and we picked up the pieces together from there on.

N, I call her my sugarplum. The bunny lover. She is peculiar. She is funny and has the capacity to shut you up within seconds. Not one to mess with,but she's adorable. N and I too,have found a bond after college. The only ones left in the city after college,we have sort of found a bond and I love her for it.

Then there is And. The very first girl friend in college. Over the years she was instrumental in many of my firsts. She has stood by me like a rock. She has loved the ones I loved and hated the ones I hated. She has felt my pain and my happiness and she's always truly happy for me. And to me is as good as a boyfriend. We fight, we make up. She's not within the boundaries of the nation anymore,however she is one person who gets an almost everyday update of my life.

P is a hindi movie in herself. She used to be our agony aunt in college. She had advice on everything related to heart and health.She would interact with our parents with such ease,you wouldn't doubt she was meeting them for the first time. She also tops the list for 'the most amount of drama in life'. P and I had sour moments but she is a friend nevertheless. We seek each other every now and then and bond like long lost friends whenever we meet. There is love,rarely expressed,but felt for sure.

It was only in college I realized how much we treasure our gal pals. They have been there and will continue to be there with their undying loyalty. I don't question their friendship,not even for a second. Each of us have our own separate lives in different cities,lives that we strive to live and make through without cribbing too much,but I can without a flicker of my eye give a guarantee on 'I'll have them when I need them'. My lil gang is the scrapbook of my life. They know it all and like the pages of a book,they absorb it to talk about it only at times when reminiscence knocks on our doors.

When I walked out of the gates of my institution this evening,proud of the degree in my hand,I had a lump in my throat and if it wasn't for how tired I was I would have welled up and let the tears flow. No matter how those years flew by,they were the golden years. The end of one chapter in life,is actually the beginning of the next chapter. Some characters you carry with you from the previous pages and add to the story of life newer characters to bring meaning and color to what is known as 'life' .

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Someday




Some day, the home will have a walk-in shoe closet. Filled with every kind of shoe there is. A room,girlfriends will look at and lose their breath!




3 daughters and a son! Years from now, I may look at this and laugh but I could also be looking at it and saying 'see! i knew all along'

Friday, October 7, 2011

08.10.11

Since the last post,a lot of deep thinking has been done. Mostly about life (I continue to be in the mode) and where am I headed? We hear about sucess and hard work and the direct relation of the two. I know some of these sucess stories up close and personally. My dad being one of them. His hard work,determination and the will to go get it is astounding. I don't say this because he's my dad,the hero figure of my life. He has proven himself time and again. Started from literally rags to the riches today. He's silenced his critics, not once lashed back at them. Only proved himself on his mettle. I pride myself on being his daughter. The eldest one. They know him,the world. Ever since I have realized the meaning, the grandeur of sucess and the perks that come with it, I have always equated it to dad's story.

However, I don't know how right I am when I say it. Maybe with time, my opinion will change and I will know this opinion was only a thought for the struggling years.So, they say-nothing grows under a banyan tree. Dad is my banyan tree. I really hope time will change my opinion. Today anything I do has a direct comparison to him. The pressure is absurd sometimes, but who doesn't have pressures to deal with? I take this one as my pressure and deal with it in my own way or don't deal with it at all. The next 3 months will truly test my capacity to endure the struggles that come with growing under someone who has achieved the skies and strives to achieve beyond.

Not like I don't always but today has been a day of great thankfulness. Had an hour long talk with two of my favorite girlfriends and like every time, I find a new found realization to the extent of my love for them. There is a lot to learn every time I speak with them. My gal palfrom college,S and I don't speak as often as we used to. We used to be in the same college,same city. After college life has moved her to a city close by. We don't speak very often but every time we do, we are at it for at least an hour. We are two different people with very similar traits. I don't know if that makes sense,but that is what it is. I feel our small group of 6 actually has 6 very different people but we bond and boy! we are fun.

With a lot of happiness, I wish for a happier post the next time.

-MissRascal

Saturday, October 1, 2011

1.10.11

I quit my first job at my dad's company a few months back. Since, I have been preparing for entrances to pursue further studies.Hopefully I will be back to books,classrooms and studying in 6 months. I didn't think I would miss it. I do. Sometimes, it isn't the studying as much as it is being in college. I attended one of the premier institutions of the country.3 years under graduate program and what a program it was. To call education,we didn't really educate ourselves here.But,we did learn some lessons,make some friends(hopefully for life) and above all we had fun.Bunking classes,only taking interest in college fests,irritating the teachers,under performing in academics,whiling time around the college campus,having perfect attendance for lazing at best friend's(read:friends) apartment,eating junk,getting drunk,falling in love(oh! watte love!),late nights,driving,making parents question our life's goals! All of that. I miss those times,I miss that age! I am 2 years older now. Wiser? Maybe,maybe not. Does one realize at 20,how much life will change in a couple of years? I was clueless. Thinking of it now, I can't believe I didn't see it coming. Parents were right when they questioned my goals. I was immature. I had one plan and I didn't see a reason for it to not work. But,it didn't and HEY! I was shattered. I did a couple of courses-language and communication for 6 months and then joined Dad to experience the corporate jungle.5 months there and I knew I wasn't cut out for it.

Take 2 and here I am 5 months hence, still confused with choices and more than anything,with life itself. 2 months to the end of the year,to December. The month I'll be taking the entrances and I still don't have answers to the Biggest questions of my life. What do I want from life? Where do I see myself in the future? Is this what I really want? Will I ever make it?

The agony of it all flashes only once in a while. I am not a disturbed soul. One that is depressed. I have had the most amazing last 5 months, basically lazing and spending time with my mum. Its been good. The love of my life-A, is in the city. Life as you see it,is perfect. When I peek inside me,I know what is looming. Lets hope by the end of this year,I have answers to all my crazy questions.Hopefully 2012 will be the most awaited year. (oooohhh 2012,haha)

-MissRascal